Friday, January 29, 2010

When it rains and rains

Mika is just awesome, more than this, baby I hate days like this.

It's Fe-fe-friday :D Tomorrow's Thaipusam so no extra co-curiculum! YESHH But damn it, there's Chem tuition.

I just realise, I hate it when people like a certain band because it's the "it" band. I know, I know, I bet you hate those too. But what I'm trying to say is why can't you just like what you like without being judge. There are some that I do wonder why people could like them, eg: Jobros, Justin Bieber. Not judging. I remembered when all my friends were into screamos and some are still are because well it was the trend to be into those. But if they truly like it, well then good on you, but if they're into them because it's cool, I think it's just like forcing yourself to eat something you detest.

Well, I did try out to different genres, trying to see what my friends see in those bands. But it was a failure; in the end I still listened to the same song I liked a long time ago. Call me boring, out of date, but at least I'm enjoying the songs I'm listening to instead of hearing some random underground bands. Being comfortable with what you like is very important, if you let others rule your interest then when in the world are you going know what you truly like?

I tried to fit in with the crowd, but seriously it just wasn't me. So I like mainstream pop, alternative rock, and I like to sing RnB tunes for fun but it's not in my playlist. It took me quite sometime to figure out what I really like and what I don't, and if you don't agree with my music then you shouldn't be reading my blog. Kidding, all opinions are accepted. And what song is playing in my earphones right now? Kris Allen - Before We Come Undone, I really like the starting of the chorus :D

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Oh Hello

Just updating me bloggeh. Since I have the mood to type. Oh I miss the keyboard <3

Ok onto more serious matter O_O yeah right. So January's ending. HAZAH. I'm not that stressed out anymore because I've settled in but nonetheless still stressed. I'm just so tired :'[ I have to do a performance during recess, I didn't want to. But the teacher is pestering me! So I finally just said yes :( Hmm what else is there in my boring life? Everytime a car pass by with the plate WMG I'll automatically think of W=mg :D nerdy right? And I find myself inserting stuff that I just learn into my family conversation during eating time. My mum would just nod.

I can't wait for this to be over :)

Errr no I ran out of things to say.... *thinks thinks* I still haven't decided on what course I should take. HMPH, so many to choose yet so many rejected. I really don't know what's my calling. I mean everybody has their calling. And I should have one! Dang it I want a bloody calling. All I know is I'm going to something in the art's field, social science? Well you know me, I like to communicate with people. How dare my piano teacher thinks I'm not sociable, I AM! Haha :D I wanted to become a music journalist, I mean I like music and I like writing. What a match right? But here's the downside in that field, THE PAY. I mean I don't need a lot of money but I'm just scared if I don't get a job because most journalist are free-lance. What if I didn't get anything published, no money, no home, the horror. So that's the problem. I want a stable career yet I know all the stable careers does not interest me, eg: accounting ( I hate numbers >:[ )

So I'm still browsing courses, and if you have any idea what I should be, please do tell me. I'll listen. I promise :(

Friday, January 15, 2010

I don't care I just have to.

I know I shouldn't have waste my time on the internet but I just need to unwind. Thinking of the homeworks makes my head go loopy. I'm so scared if I go crazy. I use to laugh at how people can go mental when SPM year because I thought that's not possible. How bad is one exam? But now I know why. And seriously you could easily go cuckoo if you're not careful. Tuitions, tuitions, tuitions. I hate my life now. I know you're suppose to seek knowledge for your own good. But if I had it my way I'll learn certain stuff one by one but not all at once! But the reasons why I'm not doing that:

1) In order to receive a scholarship you have to smart. And nowadays there's so many smart people and so that's why I chose science stream so that I could have more choices. But I think I'm not going to do anything science related but then again you never know.

2) I have no money to do what I want.

Hmph, I don't care I just have to. I need to get out. Live life. And experience what the world has to offer. But I do have fear though about being there and having nobody to turn to. But I need to take a gamble and I promise myself that I will do whatever possible to get myself overseas.

sigh, bye.

Friday, January 8, 2010

First Week of Torture Year.

It's Friday, I'm mentally and physically exhausted. I am depressed and stressed. I have no relax time to spare. Even if I did, it's not a lot. The TV has become a stranger. Internet became a luxury. And I have super eyebags because I haven't got much rest. I'm going to document the suffering so that I could read this again in 11 months time. My life sucks. But I have to, or else my future is ruined. Hardwork DOES pay off. I don't want to end up as a carreer-less loser. I don't have money to go to any universities my heart freaking desires. So the only way is (yes, I bet 98% are depending on the same thing) a scholarship :( WHICH IS SUPERDUPER HARD TO GET!ARGH!RAGE!ANGST! lol

I just don't want to regret not doing enough for SPM.

Sunday, January 3, 2010



Well, it rained. After 2 weeks of no rain in Terengganu. But it rained and the wind was breezy. Waves we're rough (ofc I didnt swim, you want me to die?). Ate ate ate. I ate 3types of keropok lekor from different stalls. Ate Satar. Nasi Dagang. Squid stuffed with pulut. Lempeng. Visit my relatives. Oh yeah. Had a longgggggggggggggggg car ride. I'm super tired.

I brought back an ugly shell back because it was the cleanest one on the beach. Might just throw it away. I'm so full. My mother bought a lot of satar and local bread. I learnt that sorok is laci. Cili is called lada. There's another word for taugeh but I can't spell. They don't say termenung, they say termengung. Step by step learning the trenganu slang.

Bluh bye :)