Monday, December 20, 2010

Whiny McWhiner

Yes I do whine a lot. And some might say~ (lol Oasis song, check my post in Shark in A Bowl ;] ) I am ungrateful, spoiled brat.

Let me clear this up:

1. Spoiled brats wants everything and gets everything. I on the other hand wants everything and doesn't get everything.

2. I am grateful, but I have this mood swings that clouds my judgement. Hmm, I might bipolar man.

As I always do, when I'm mad, or depress, I'll write in my blog. To just get it out. Right now, everything feels like its against me. Especially my family. They're getting on my nerves. Maybe I'm just at home too much. And they made so many unfulfilled promises, that just make angry.

Part of me feels rebellious and just want to break promises. But then whats the use of that. Through this I learn, if I break promises than the other person would feel like how I feel. And I don't want to be the cause. So I will try my best to keep my promises no matter how big or small it is. And I am crap at remembering stuff, so if I have broken some promises I'm sorry and you can tell me what I've missed and I'll try to fix it :)

See I feel better.

Sunday, December 19, 2010


I'm just so pissed.

I really need to channel it into a positive energy.

It shouldn't be so hard to look at the glass half-full side.

I feel like punching someone's face. (then again I always feel like I want to punch someone's face)


Not only do I have PMS, I have angst. Angst.

This sucks. Period ( ha-ha not funny).

I should google how to control my anger.

Mmm yes. That is an idea! *lightbulb* Yeah I know it's a bit too late for the lightbulb.

Oh dang. I'm so depressed. I feel like cutting myself. Loljk. I'm too scared. HAHAH But seriously I am not that stupid.

Maybe I am? Wth I'm so high. Wow I just changed anger into high-ness?

My so called 'diet program' is not working. I've been binge eating :O hehehe. Plus theres always more chocolates in the fridge when you're trying to be healthy :\ That's just how the universe works.

Until I figure how the universe works. Bye.<--- Boring way to end I know. But I've been so uninspired *sigh* I need a muse!

Friday, December 17, 2010

Task 1 completed.

I have officially registered in a driving school! One small step for man, a giant sigh of relief for me.
My dad said learning how to drive is the main priority. So that's out of the way. I'm going to attend the lecture this Sunday, all by myself~ Don't wanna be, all by myyyseellllf! ANYYYYYMORE! It's only 5 hours :S Hmm yes.

I'm scared. The lady said, girls had a hard time driving, for obvious reasons. I have never driven a manual car before. And in an automatic, I have only driven forward. Never reverse or park. Never mind, theres still a long way to go.

I went to Taylor's Open Day. Yeah there's nothing much though I did there. I bumped into Jason, apparently he registered already! He is going for January intake.

So ladidaa I am growing up. I guess. My head is throbbing. The back of my eyes feel like somebody is assaulting it with a blunt knife :(

Hmm, so I am progressing in my list to do. I have two weeks to complete everything. *sigh* NEED MINIONS! And with the driving stuff, my time will be limited. Looks like I'm back to being busy me. I have never been free. I have always something to do. And I am the champion of procrastination, so that will explain why I am always bored even though I have a thousand and one things to do.

I'm sorry I've been blogging about my boring life. OH DEAR, I have run out of things to talk about. Maybe I'll become more interesting after college.

I hope college wouldn't consume my life. I want a nice balance.

I'm so tired. I'm watching 101 Dalmatians.

Yeah bye. Uhm, I'll talk to you later okay :) HAHA

Sunday, December 12, 2010

I need minions.

I need tiny minions to do all my work. I need to start painting. I like painting, it makes my mind focus. When I start painting, nothing else matter besides finishing the painting. It is absolutely relaxing. I love it.

The problem is starting the painting. I have a tough time to decide what to paint. I generally paint cartoonish figures. I like paintings with pastel colours. Soft lighting. Nothing to bold. Subtle is the way to go.

Oh god. I have so many things to do. I need to enroll myself to a driving school. I need to find a college for JANUARY INTAKE. I need to shop for clothes for college which is in JANUARY. I still haven't decide on what to take dammit. I'm probably doing A-level but it's going to be like SPM all over again. I don't know. I want to see counselors. But where are those counselors.

My piano hasn't been tuned for a year. The keys are falling apart. I have no acoustic guitar. My pick is missing. My nails hurt because of the strumming.


So yes, I need minions!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Beauty that never fades.

Since I'm so over SPM, I can finally read books! I mean books besides textbooks. Well my dad bought a secondhand eBook reader awhile ago. Inside it, theres classics like Moby Dick, Dracula, and etc.

It just so happen it has The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, the only novel he published. Before SPM, my friends and I watched the movie Dorian Gray where Ben Barnes acted as Mr. Gray. The movie was uhhh yeah more action than conversation. Though, Ben Barnes was gorgeous in it :) I had a crush on him for awhile after watching Dorian Gray. But the crush was short-lived.

Currently, I'm halfway through the book, and I quite like the book. It presents an interesting view about beauty and morals. How obsessed one can be with looks. Like Lord Henry Wotton said about beauty, it is an intelligence even more greater than any other intelligence because it does not need explanation.

So theres many different angles on morals, about satisfying ones desire. You have Lord Henry who supports hedonism and the painter of the infamous picture Basil, who tried to shelter Dorian from the influence of Lord Henry and failed. And of course there is Dorian Gray,
from an innocent young lad to a hideous soul.

What a coin-hi-dink I'm doing a portrait again! HAHA luckily it's not a self-portrait. Self-portrait is not my thing, I like to paint other people. I'll try to post pictures once I'm finish. I promised that last time hehe sorry. I guess I forgot, the portrait is half finish till this day. Don't ask why.

Oh yeah, my friends and I have officially launched Shark in a Bowl. So check that out too!

Click here :) ->Shark in a Bowl

Friday, December 10, 2010

If there could be anything sweeter than honey, it would be this.

I feel giddy and happy. It's because of this one song. You know the feeling when you see a your crush or you just so happen to remember all the summer holidays memories. Well this song just hit the right chords for me. Ahhh I just love how it makes me feel.

It kind of reminds me of a story of summer romance. Girl meets boy. They become inseparable, falls madly deeply in love. Time seems to stop, and all what matters is the time spent together. Where you're living in the moment. So carefree, and beautiful in a way :D Everything seems perfect :) Sigh boy I would love to have a summer love. Too bad I live here and I'm not going to anywhere exotic or exciting to meet the perfect guy for summer. HAHA well I can dream.

The song is freaking sweet, sigh sigh sigh!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

More than goodbyes

No I'm not leaving you bloggeh,

So told you I would be back soon! Is it too soon? Maybe but I'm bored and I'm trying to get my blog back on track.

Do you like pop? Do you like funk? Do you like catchy chorus? Well if you do then Hands All Over is the perfect album for you! Yes Hands All Over, this sexy beast is the work of Maroon 5. You probably knew that, I told you I'm stuck in the past. But let me review it.

I always been secretly a fan of Maroon 5, why secretly because I don't know, they're so overplayed on the radio. But anyways, they're back with new shizamms. And it's good! But if you like indie or hard rock metal then it's not for you.

Hands All Over is like your own private party. The starting is very poppy and gradually becomes funky. Then after you had some funk, Maroon 5 slows it down with couple of ballads. There's one song featuring the singer from Lady Antebellum (not a fan of them though), so that shows how diverse it is.

Though Adam Levine lyrics are still the same, about women and yeah but it fits with the song. What I'm trying to tell you is, go and listen to Hands All Over, if you want something fun.

My favourite tracks are Stutter, Give A Little More, Runaway and yeah you know what just listen to all.

Oh I'm starting a new blog with my friends, will keep you updated my non existing readers!

Miss me?

Dear bloggers, I am in love with Nick Valensi. Just FYI. Not really related to this post.

I am now finally released from the grasp of SPM! Jump for joy because I'm not going to study Biology anymore :)

I'm still getting used to typing a post. Gosh how long has it been since I had a proper post? Too long! And my brain is all tired and throbbing. My back aches, sitting for 20 plus papers is not fun. I am stuck in the stone age. It's going to take awhile for me to get back on track.

Hmm, since I'm here I might as well tell you about what's going on with me right now. Not like you care, but I feel like typing. I miss my blog okay. So college next year, hmm yes. College. Well, I have no idea where I am going, what I am going to do. So yeah, that's going to be a challenge. And yes the college that has the subjects I want is freaking expensive. $$$ It's all about the money, money, money.

Oh! I can now take my driver's license! But I'm kind of scared to drive alone, and at night. My experience behind the wheel isn't the best. Let's hope I improve *game face on*

It's my last day of school. By last meaning, the last day I'm ever going to attend school wearing a school uniform :\ I'm suppose to be ecstatic to be over with SPM or be real sad with leaving school. But I don't feel anything? Maybe my brain hasn't comprehend it yet. I'm suppose to have this big sigh of relief hmph. But no, I'm having 1001 things crossing my minds about college, about what to do and etc. How boring *yawn* I'm suppose to rest my brain today. Get some real sleep, but I'm up here with you blogger. See, I have to keep myself busy.

Maybe I'll change my blog layout. Do something simple. Yes simple please!

So I'll stop here, before I go on and on. See you soon, buddy! And I MEAN IT :)

** I hate how I sound in this post. But I shall improve with time. I'm rusty okay :|

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Dear blog,

2 more papers to go :) Ah if my smile could reach from ear to ear. I shall blog next week, hmm what shall I blog about. 2 mo! 2 mo!