Don't leave me tongue tied.

It's slowly coming to my realization that I'm mostly likely to be leaving MALAYSIA.

This means that I'm going to be separated by thousand of miles of land and sea from my family and friends.

I am currently in denial about that, but I can't say goodbye to any of them. The thought of it is just too overwhelming. Even thinking about it makes me want to forgo leaving to the US.

I asked my mum whether she regretted the decision of staying here for her studies, and without hesitation she said "No." I guess I now realized it's not the place that gives you joy but what you make out of it.

I think I can confidently say that I would be happy to stay in Malaysia and I would not regret if I did not go to the US. But I don't want to stay in my comfort zone forever. I want to grab every opportunity that I get and make the best out of it. Even if the opportunity calls for leaving my loved ones behind, TEMPORARILY.

So InsyaAllah, I am making the right decision. Even if it's a mistake, heck let's learn from our mistake.

"My thoughts are stars that I can't fathom into constellations."- John Green. ( That is why I am slow at writing letters, but I will, by hook or by crook.)

I seriously have no mood

I just don't know. I do miss you blog. But I don't have the motivation for me to write. It's not like I have no ideas (hmm come to think of it, I can't seem to remember what I wanted to talk about), it's just I'm just so tired to think.

I just finished my Unit 1 EdExcel exam. Phew. The papers were quite okay. Econs was a bit cuckoo (wtcrap, why is the supply curve straight?). Business was business, full of nonesense. English lit, well I'm proud of how far I've come okay! :S Psycho, was not psychotic. It was doable. Yeah yeah yeah. Yeah 3X. Stupid song. Nice intro, horrible everything.

So today marks my last day as an official student of my current college. I got offered to do American Degree Foundation Programme. So yeah. I love my current college. My friends and lecturers are awesome! And I'm not even exaggerating. I will miss my friends. Especially Christal. She's like glued to me. At least I had the chance to experience college life at the greatest college ever. And meet loads of people. So I am not sad because it ended, I am happy because it happened. That's a load of bull, I'm super sad.

Hey I ended up blogging. Hmmmmmmmm. Yeah. Goodbyes sucks.


There shouldn't be a good there. SO I BID TO YOU A GOODNIGHT. AND GOODNIGHT TO ALL!

Aching from saying goodbyes.

Hahah :D this was barely a year ago. Good times, sigh.

Prepare for a full on emo post :)

Today is Thiro last day at SMKBJ, :'( I feel like crying, seriously. Known you only for a year, but its still good enough of a year to make me your friend. Like QM said, we didn't exactly clicked at first. I thought you hated us :D Thira, I'm gonna miss the way you tease barney, your crazyness to other people and who am I suppose to harrass people with? And I never even got the chance to hang out with you outside school, although we planned a dozen times, but none came to life. Especially Twilight, grr. Eventhough you would pick him over me, I would still pick you over any other guys:) You probably think I'm a psycho, but I am :D And Good Luck and I only wish for the best for you. Even if you forget me, which I think you will, still you'll be apart of my 3 Lambda memories.

Love ya thiro, sincerely lino or leon or wtvelse you call me.

So emo! I don't know why but I always had trouble with saying goodbyes. I guess I just want everything to stay the same but I know that's impossible. So you just have to accept the fact that things do change and you can do nothing about it. I remember my first big farewell, where I had to move and leave my neighbourhood friends. I know you guys are still going on without me but I still miss you guys :) And I don't think I can get over missing you guys. Yuni, Allia, MY, you are the bomb. When you coming here again?Bros before hoes, LOL.